Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Boy Or Girl: Finding Out The Sex Of Your Baby

I am a planner. I am organized. I like to be prepared for anything life throws at me. This includes small children entering the world. When I was pregnant with Chase I counted down to that very important ultra sound where they tell you if you are having a boy or a girl. I wanted to know. Wait, I needed to know! I can't say I had a certain feeling whether or not he was going to be a "he" or "she". I was thrilled though to find out we were having a boy.

We had started talking about names early on yet to my surprise we were not agreeing on anything. We had decided to put it on hold until we knew for sure. Now that we knew our little miracle was a boy I just had to name him! NOW!! So back to the name game. I wanted to be able to talk to him, sing to him, and read to him, all while using his name. After what seemed like forever I came up with Chase. Chase means: Hunter. Since daddy loves to hunt I came up with this. Honestly, at that point daddy didn't have much of a choice!

Baby Chase

He had a name! I could tell everyone this person growing in my belly was Chase. I tried to imagine what he would look like. I ecstatically prepared his nursery with bright blue walls, pictures and quotes. It didn't matter how sick he made me, I tried to never complain because I was having a baby. A baby boy.

Fast forward to Chase's second birthday. Naturally we wanted to give him the best gift ever! So we decided to give him a sibling! We planned this specific birthday gift and worked hard to make it happen. I found out on a Sunday morning that indeed Chase would be a big brother!

It was different this time. All the "firsts" that I experienced with Chase would not be that this time around. Thankfully I was not put through the awful morning sickness which I had with Chase through most of my pregnancy. And I wouldn't have to suffer another urinary blockage as I had with Chase. I wasn't doing a nursery since it was decided we would co sleep and some day (I am still not sure when that day will be almost two years later) the baby would be sharing a room with his brother. My mania for having to be prepared suddenly didn't mean much. I decided that I needed a "first" for this baby. I decided I wanted it to be a surprise.

Wesley- 3D Ultrasound

This I thought would not only be incredible yet a huge challenge for me. Maybe I would cave and find out anyway. I could always ask during a later ultra sound right?! It wasn't that hard though. I didn't want to know. The wonder of what I was carrying inside me filled me with such joy. I was not  infatuated with finding out the sex. It did not matter. The baby I was carrying was all that mattered. The very existence of this child burned a fire in me so strong that it did not matter if it was a boy or a girl.

And then he came...like thunder rolling through the sky. Fierce and erratic. It was another emergency C-Section. I laid there on that operating table anxious for this child who was rocking my world already. He was pulled from my body and I tried to see him but couldn't. I needed to meet this child I waited for. The child I longed for. It was another boy!

Wesley-Less than 48 hours old. The day we brought him home.

To be honest I always knew Wesley was a boy. I felt it with every part of me. Looking at his face for the first time it was as though I already knew him. He was mine, meant for me. 

I would not change any part of how I found out for my first and not for my second. As both boys are different so were my pregnancies and how I got to know each baby. I like that I experienced both knowing and keeping one a surprise. Both boys have their own special stories, just as unique as the children they are.
 

8 comments:

  1. Aw, I love this. I found out with both my kids because, like you, I am a planner. I also had high risk pregnancies for both and had emergency c sections too- I figured it my c sections were going to be a surprise then I might as well find out what I was having beforehand and be a little prepared!

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    1. It was fun finding out with Wes. I wasn't sure I could do it but so glad I did. That's crazy we both had emergency c section for both. Damn kids! ;)

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  2. I love reading others stories on their babies. How could you not know though? Were you so anxious to find out?! What a wonderful little surprise and I'm so happy you and he were ok!

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    1. I love reading birth stories too!! Yes, we both were OK THANK GOD. Ironically I had an emergency c section with my first and the moments before I whisked away to the OR were very similar. It was scary and I tried to VBAC with my second so heart breaking. BUT I have two happy, healthy boys and that is all that matters!

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  3. So sweet! I was the same way with my first baby, and I've wondered if I'll be such a planner the next time around. After reading this, I might even wait to find out the sex of baby #2! What an amazing thing to wait for and how special to find out the first time you see your sweet baby.

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    1. You should do it!! I will never regret finding out with the first and am happy I waited with the second. Challenge yourself, it is the most amazing surprise. Especially for us planners!

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  4. Aw, that's so sweet! I love that. I didn't find out with either baby, but the ultrasound tech kinda hinted baby #2 was a boy, and he was. It's such an incredible surprise. It's fun that you got to experience each pregnancy differently! Thanks for linking up at the Manic Mondays blog hop!

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    1. It was fun. Both pregnancies, finding out vs not finding out, right down to who these boys are...very different!!!

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