Tuesday, August 4, 2015

A Unique Love; There Is No Favorite Child

I love both my children immensely. My heart swells when I see their faces each morning and I know that I am fortunate to have them. For some reason they chose me to be their mother...those poor things...It is amazing some days that these two boys are brothers. I see similarities in them yet they are very different. Chase is my fire cracker. He is out going, energetic, eager, mischievous, and wild. Wesley on the other hand is laid back, shy, sweet, yet is has little fear. He has no qualms about climbing things and sending me into panic mode. Just as my boys are different, so is my love for them.

Chase is my first born, there is something sacred about that. There will never be another "first". The feelings I felt when I was pregnant to the first time I laid eyes on him are all moments that I will hold dear to me. Out of both of the boys he is most like me. I see it all the time, in things he does as well as the things he says. We can be close one moment then collide the next. I like to whisper in his ear that he is my "Favorite Person". Truth be told, he really is. Even in challenging moments (believe me, lately there have been several of those) I know he is an amazing boy. He may try to dodge my kisses yet he still asks to snuggle and insists on nightly back rubs from either myself or his father.



Then there is Wesley. I was just saying to his father that there is just "something" about him. I feel this connection with him that is very different. I can't say that I can pinpoint exactly what it is. When I was pregnant with Wesley he was diagnosed with Hydronephrosis. I spent half of my pregnancy not having answers and wanting to protect my child. I would lay awake at night and pray for a healthy baby. We were blessed with exactly that though I wonder if going through this with him drew me into him in a way that only I can feel but not explain. He is my "baby" and will always be just that. There is an innocence he possesses which intrigues me. He is a mama's boy; wherever I go he must go. 


No, I do not have a favorite child. My love for my children is equal and continues to grow within me each day. I do feel it is fair to say that my love for both of them is different. As they are both their own unique creatures, so is the love I have for each of them. They both make up parts of me as I make up part of them. It goes beyond our blood, it is deeper than the ocean, and higher than the moon that hangs over their heads. My love for them cannot be measured nor can it be uttered in words that amplify their true meaning.  Each of my boys have my love and it is limitless and unconditional.


I  know as the years go by there will be shifts in both relationships with each boy. I know there will be times that one may be more drawn to me than the other. I also know that there will be times my relationship with one of them may cause a heavy heart. This is life. This is the hard part of parenting and raising little people. We are challenged, we are tested, we are forced to feel things that cause our hearts to ache.

We are also rewarded by the same love. We are given the most incredible gift we could ever receive. Nothing measures the love you share with your child. It is blissful, astounding, alluring, and magnificent. I am blessed to experience two very different and amazing loves.



14 comments:

  1. I know exactly what you mean about loving them in different ways :-)

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    1. It is an amazing thing to feel love kin so many different ways.

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  2. Love this! <3 I absolutely love my children in different ways- not more or less, just unique!

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    1. It is unique. Unexplained by words really. It is pretty amazing! <3

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  3. Isn't it so amazing? That your heart can feel so much love that you never knew existed, and then make room for even more? I get it too...my first made me a mom. I grew up with her. The second is our little imp, and brings more joy to us than we ever knew existed. Beautiful post!

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    1. It is beyond amazing! Who knew the heart could hold so much love and have it continue to grow.

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  4. It is so refreshing to hear that while you love each child differently, you love them the same. I am reminded that just as there are no favorites with God our Heavenly Father, there should be no favorites among our children either.

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    1. Absolutely! Love cannot be measured by an amount. IT is something very sacred and all children deserve it. My boys are both wonderful creatures yet so different.

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  5. so well put. Our children are uniquely themselves and if we can value them for that then there is a better chance that they will value themselves for it later. Great post. Beautifully written

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    1. Thank you Kirsten! I hope my children always feel my love and know how unique it is to both of them.

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  6. I'm glad to hear that love is different and equal for both. I just can't imagine loving another child so much, but I guess things do change when you have more than one :)

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    1. It is an entirely different ball game! It is wonderful when you discover that your heart can love for more than one child and just as fierce.

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  7. I enjoyed reading your perspective on having two children and loving them differently and equally. I've been thinking about this lately, and it's amazing how our hearts can expand to let even more love in when they are already so full of love. I have one son now, but I look forward to experiencing this with baby #2 one day! —Visiting from the Manic Mondays Blog Hop :)

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    1. It is something I think about and am in awe of. That I can love both my children with every ounce of me yet so differently. It is astounding! You'll see someday! ;)

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